What do I “do”?
Short answer: nothing. I didn’t know what to do. I knew I needed to act fast. Something was really wrong with me. I had tumors everywhere. I had one over my stomach that was 24x13x11 cm, a mini-basketball, and I had tumors all around my throat and clavicle areas, over my kidneys, my liver. In short, everywhere.
But I can’t fight all this. There’s too much going on for me to deal with this. So I stopped fighting and started focusing on Jesus Christ. I “imagined” Him to be right there in the room with me. I pictured Him smiling at me with the biggest smile you’ve ever seen. He wanted so much to be with me. That’s the look on His face that I imagined. He was blessed to be with me. Like a good friend that has a look of excitement to be with his best friend. This was the Jesus I knew. He loves me.
My physical body was working hard to do what God designed it to do but it was an exhausting effort. So I would just sleep alot.
But I really needed to rest “in Him”. What’s that mean? It means, I needed to stop fighting this thing on my own. I needed to see that God was for me and not against me. Sickness isn’t from God. When Jesus was on the earth, He explained the Father. He showed how compassionate and loving God is toward everyone except the religious of that day. My expectation had to be away from myself and directed toward Him. This took time for me to do this. I wasn’t healed after the first week in the hospital, nor after the second week, nor after the third week, and on through the seventh week of that first and only cycle of chemo I had. I continued to keep a level head, to not give voice to fear and to say in my heart and with my mouth, “Therefore, there is now no condemnation in Christ Jesus”. It’s from Romans 8:1. God is not condemning you because you are in the situation you are in. He’s not ‘teaching you a lesson’.
His Yoke Is Easy, It’s Only Hard Because We’ve Been Taught Wrongly.
We are more than overcomers through His love for us (Romans 8:37). So I imagined He loved me so much. And my mouth did not give voice to fear or doubt. Instead, I called cancer dead in my body. I didn’t deny it was there. But I could call it dead. It seems pretty stupid to say this for most folks. I mean all the tests, the white blood cell counts, the red blood cell counts, etc. are all pointing to a body out of control, being ravaged by a silent deadly killer. But Jesus had said to His apostles “… whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” He had been talking about building His church. But a church is people. It’s not the building. He was talking to you and me in the future as well. Who’s in control now? We are. But how do you exercise this control? You open your mouth.
You Move Your Lips
Week after week in the hospital and I’m still not healed. What’s going on here? When Jesus instructed His disciples “how” to pray, He told them to say “your will (we are speaking of God’s will here) be done, on earth as it is in heaven”. What’s His will in heaven? There is no sickness, there is no lack, there is no shame, and there is no condemnation in heaven. When we pray, we ask that His will be done on earth as it is in heaven. We exercise our authority on the earth with our mouth. Think about what you say and change your words. Don’t speak the symptoms. Don’t speak the test results. We open our mouth and speak as He would want us to speak. Call cancer dead. Call Jesus your healer. God wants your trust to be in Him, not in you, and not in those around you.
Say God’s word over you. We trust that He will carry out His will here on earth as it is in heaven. It is not God’s will that we die.
Have Faith In His Faith To Heal You.
My book will take you on the journey I took to be cancer free. It is really learning to walk in faith unto Jesus Christ. I didn’t have faith at first. I’m not ashamed to say this. Remember, there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Initially, I tried to orient my faith towards me being healed. But that’s not it.
Faith has an object. Who’s your object? In Galatians 2:20 (NASB), it says “I have been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.”
I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me.
He loved me so much He gave Himself up for me. My faith had to learn NOT to have faith in my faith but to have faith in Him, in His faithfulness to carry out what He said He would do.
If you have had a loved one die, you are not alone. I am very sorry for your loss. God grieved with you then and He wants to comfort you now in every good work and word. God sent His Son, our Messiah, to show God’s compassion for us as individuals, as real people, who hurt. He hurts when we hurt. It was never God’s intention that your loved one would die. Don’t try to rationalize it either by saying that God’s will was for your loved one to die. He or she died. That’s not God’s will. As Forrest Gump said, “ ‘it’ happens”. When Jesus died on the cross, He took on Himself not only our sins but our shame. There is no shame from God if you’ve had a loved one die. If you are reading this you are still alive. When you are alive God can have fellowship with you. He can commune with you. He can lavish His love on you. He can boast in you. If you have a loved one who is struggling for life, he or she is alive and can have Christ live through them. They can receive healing from Jesus Christ. There is still hope.
You Use Your Eyes.
I need you to focus on Jesus Christ, His love for you, His care for you. Don’t focus on anyone else, including you. When you look at you, you end up comparing yourself to others. You measure yourself against others as either better or worse. Don’t do this. It’s part of the natural way of life to compare. Why? Because we want to produce with the greatest impact, the highest revenue, the lowest cost. It’s how we determine what’s effective and what’s not in reaching a particular goal. But it’s not God’s way. Remember what Jesus said in the gospels about His way. His yoke is easy and His burden is light.
When the Israelites were in the wilderness they were falling ill and dying because of serpents biting them (see Numbers 21). The Lord told Moses to make a fiery serpent and set it on a pole and it shall be that everyone who is bitten when he looks at it will live. Today, that symbol, a serpent wrapped around a brass pole is the symbol for medical help and is displayed in pharmacies worldwide. Why a serpent? And why a pole? The serpent represented every evil we might come across. The brass is symbolic of judgment. Every evil was nailed to a brass pole. Looking at that you would live. Think about this. What’s the point of this for us? This is a shadow of the Messiah, Jesus Christ. On Him was placed every evil. On Him was brought every judgment against us. Why? So we could live. All you have to do is look at the cross and see your deliverance. It doesn’t take any strength to “look” at something. Remember, He took on the guilt and shame of every evil – we are no longer under condemnation from God. The cross represents all your judgment placed on Him, all your diseases, all your sicknesses, every evil you can think of.
All you have to do is look at Jesus Christ on the cross and all that He accomplished for you. The cross represents redemption, healing, peace with God forevermore. Don’t look at your sins as religion has trained us to do. Look at Him who freed you from sin, who healed you. He delivered you from sin and its consequences. That’s what the cross means. No one wants to tell you this, especially the religious among us. Get your eyes off of you and get them on Jesus Christ. He loved you so much, He died for you.
Don’t try to be someone you’re not. Don’t try to be good so He’ll heal you. You didn’t deserve His love and you didn’t deserve forgiveness of sins and you didn’t deserve healing, but it’s freely given to you anyway. Healing is free. Forgiveness is free. Your peace is free.You don’t have to do anything in exchange for it. All you have to do is simply trust God that He knew what He was doing when He sent the Messiah to die for us so that we might live. Our faith is unto God and not in ourselves and not in our ability and certainly not in our idea of faith. We covered the beginning of Romans 8 and we covered the end of Romans 8 and now I want you to look at the middle of Romans 8 to finish this post.
It’s Free. You Don’t Owe Him Anything For It.
Romans 8:32 (NKJV) “He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things?” (Bold – my emphasis). Free means free. You don’t have to be good to receive it. You don’t have to deserve it. There is no price for you to pay. It’s free. A gift from God given to us through His Son, the Messiah, a Jew. Trust God. He is faithful to His word, He is faithful to His promises. And He promised that by Jesus Christ’s stripes you would be healed (Isaiah 53:4). We’re not talking about spiritual healing here. His flesh was ripped apart so our flesh would be made whole. He is a complete Savior, a complete Messiah. He came to be a complete redeemer.